hello peoples its me again :) did you miss me?

time for more talking i guess.

do you ever want to do something but its gonna be embarassing somehow even though your not showing it to anyone? i got a bad case of that shit and boy does it suck. im perfectly capable and willing to do that shit but my brain wont let me. theres always that nagging feeling that someone is gonna see it before its ready and think it looks like shit. or that it think its great and ready to go and then i come back after its already out there and realize its shit. i know nothinng can get out if i dont let it, but its still scary. i know this is the most easily solvable problem in the history of forever. no but. it literally is the stupidest reason not to do something. theres also the feeling of "what if someone has already done this before and i just look like a cheap copy" that really fucking stinks. maybe i just should try doing something. just turn my brain off for a minute and slap something up here. im sure you newgrounds people will be chill with that.

im feeling more like i can do that stuff now too. i finaly found people who get it. im not afraid to like what i like around them. i know i can get good responses to my actions from someone and that feeling fucking rocks. especially after not having that for 13 straight years. they can be like my test audience i guess.

high school is cool as hell. probably just because i havent gotten to all the bullshit yet since i litterally just walked in the building a month ago. from what i can gather from my friends in higher grades is that freshmen and seniors are bassically babied, freshmen because we litterally are babies, and seniors because they have to be adults in a few months. Juniors are the next most important because they are almost seniors. thats it. Sophmore year is apparently, according to my friends, when the teachers stop giving a shit about you, because you arent new anymore, you aren't leaving, and you aren't preparing to leave. you're just kinda there too. thats how it is at my school at least.

anyway so yeah hope you enjoyed part 3 of my random late night newgrounds rambling sessions. imma go to bed now.